December

Its a time to enjoy the christmas cheer and laughter... so I thought...

Last month was my first month on clomid oh how we were so excited and for sure going to get pregnant this month even our doctor was positive about it. But mother nature decided nope, try again. We are so devasted! I was even so sure that this month was it!

As my family plans things for the holidays and games to play I sit here, wondering what do I have in common with my siblings? Are these parties even going to be fun anymore? They all have growing families and I dont even have one baby. I try to tell them how difficult it is to even show up but its a glass wall they see me and see how i feel they just dont understand...

Mother nature hit me hard this month harder than ever my cramping pain was so severe i even missed work, my emotions were sky high to the point I rather just block everyone out except for my husband. Do I have to show my face in front of everybody? See babies first christmas stockings?

I dont want to do any of it...call me grinch or negative annie i dont care because this year sucked!!!