Yesterday March 6, 2018 (yes we are now doing dates because dates are important with infertility treatments.) We went to Reproductive Clinic of Utah. The Dr. was amazing and super nice. With out major testing he got us on a game plan of where to start. I’m so overly joyed but yet overwhelmed. What if the plan doesn’t work than what? I’m also over joyed, because now i can finally know why i can’t get pregnant so easily. Also hopefully get pregnant quicker compared to the struggle we had with Theodore.
Plan....
Start my period.....Ugh yup forced periods which means the doc. Gives me pills that forces me to have a period....Sorry for TMIs but you have just walked into a door of how infertility goes.
Step two ultrasounds of my body and if everything is functioning alright.
Step 3 pills. Why pills you say, will because they are hormonal pills. They make your emotions go nuts just so your body can easily drop that egg, that one tiny little egg just so you can finally be at step 4.
Step four hopefully baby time! If not we repeat step 3 but no pills instead of shots. The shots you give to your self they are another hormonal supplement to boost your ovulation and to help drop that egg again...TMI again but like i said you just opened the door to infertility so you know what the process is like and how heart breaking this is.
I’m so ready on this roller coaster again but yet also to be able to have answers!
Wednesday, March 7, 2018
Here we go again!
On September 22, 2015 Theodore was born, it was such a great experience! I truly never thought that i would be the one in this position, and to have so many feelings going all at once! It was a beautiful day!...
Fast forward to 6 months later, and the thought of us having another sweet baby never left our minds. So long story short we started trying and than it just got hard again specially after taking Clomid than Leterzole, it all felt like i was at the beginning of it all! The words that people would say hurt just like months before.....“ Will at least you have one.” “It’s always easier the second time around.” And my favorite “Enjoy the one you have now.” Seriously! During this time i was and is suffering from PPD (Postpartum Depression) so everything that everyone would say just hurt me so much more. I never got a chance to have a true bond with Theo that everyone keeps talking about even now we don’t have the greatest bond. I know what everyone is thinking, while reading this. Is why don’t you just focus on building that bond than start having another one? Unfortunately it’s not that easy. I wish it was i wish everything went so smoothly on day one but it didn’t. That’s okay tho life isn’t always as planned. Life is like cooking eggs you want the middle to be perfect but instead it’s all runny and not fully cooked.
Fast forward to 6 months later, and the thought of us having another sweet baby never left our minds. So long story short we started trying and than it just got hard again specially after taking Clomid than Leterzole, it all felt like i was at the beginning of it all! The words that people would say hurt just like months before.....“ Will at least you have one.” “It’s always easier the second time around.” And my favorite “Enjoy the one you have now.” Seriously! During this time i was and is suffering from PPD (Postpartum Depression) so everything that everyone would say just hurt me so much more. I never got a chance to have a true bond with Theo that everyone keeps talking about even now we don’t have the greatest bond. I know what everyone is thinking, while reading this. Is why don’t you just focus on building that bond than start having another one? Unfortunately it’s not that easy. I wish it was i wish everything went so smoothly on day one but it didn’t. That’s okay tho life isn’t always as planned. Life is like cooking eggs you want the middle to be perfect but instead it’s all runny and not fully cooked.
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