On September 22, 2015 Theodore was born, it was such a great experience! I truly never thought that i would be the one in this position, and to have so many feelings going all at once! It was a beautiful day!...
Fast forward to 6 months later, and the thought of us having another sweet baby never left our minds. So long story short we started trying and than it just got hard again specially after taking Clomid than Leterzole, it all felt like i was at the beginning of it all! The words that people would say hurt just like months before.....“ Will at least you have one.” “It’s always easier the second time around.” And my favorite “Enjoy the one you have now.” Seriously! During this time i was and is suffering from PPD (Postpartum Depression) so everything that everyone would say just hurt me so much more. I never got a chance to have a true bond with Theo that everyone keeps talking about even now we don’t have the greatest bond. I know what everyone is thinking, while reading this. Is why don’t you just focus on building that bond than start having another one? Unfortunately it’s not that easy. I wish it was i wish everything went so smoothly on day one but it didn’t. That’s okay tho life isn’t always as planned. Life is like cooking eggs you want the middle to be perfect but instead it’s all runny and not fully cooked.
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