Ah babies are everywhere! You see them on commercials, work, and pretty much where ever you go, even pregnant women are everywhere! It sucks, it’s heart breaking and you just don’t wanna do anything that day. Work even seems longer, life seems hopeless. Worst of all your arms and tummy seem emptier than ever, not food empty but baby empty, it’s an emptiness that just can’t be explained.
Than the why questions hit in your head, why can’t that be my baby? Why can’t that be me carrying that baby inside of me? All my siblings have kids why can’t I? What did I do wrong in my life to not have babies? All the doctors say we’re fine so why haven’t I had a baby yet? You wish you could just give your self a good answer, an answer you want to hear to all of those questions but you just can’t. The only answer you can give your self is…
This is your trial you can handle this, god doesn’t give you a trial that you cant handle… There will always be the why me question? Know matter what answer you can give your self. So than on a somewhat positive note you have to think about that day when, your tummy will be filled of food for two, a baby kicking and doing flips! Than nine months later you will be a mommy! Your arms will be full, a baby in a car seat, diaper bag on one shoulder, your purse on the other!
One day life will be full of hope and joy…..
But for now i am empty, my arms, and my tummy is all empty and I only have so much hope left. I know its early in the game and I shouldn’t give up on the clinics but emotionally I am exhausted, tired, and drained.
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