Hope

Looks like the holidays are here! Yes it is a happy time of year, but also a sad time of year. I see baby costumes, kids laughing in the back ground, and baby's first Christmas stuff. It could be the fact that I am super baby hungry or just lose of hope. I cant even go somewhere with out shedding a tear.

I find my self wondering how can I get my hope back?...

 

 

"Hope shines in many different directions. We have to look for hope! We have to create it!" - S. Michael Wilcox

 

 

When I was down on my hopes and felt lost I went to the LDS Book Store and I found Finding Hope

it has showed me where I can look for hope, how to find it, and well it just answered all my questions that I had. Every time I am down I turn to this book. 

 

 Life here on earth is the time we live, grow, and learn so we can be with our savior again. I know in my heart I am supposed to be a mom, a teacher, and guider for my future little one or ones.

 

It hurts going to a place and seeing a baby with out crying, we have to be patient and wait for the medical test results to go through. Some days you just want to give up and go with adoption because that just sounds easier than playing the waiting game. It is so hard to write this with out even crying, but I know that my little one or little ones are preparing with my heavenly farther to come down and be with us. I know that they are playing with our love ones who have passed. Who are Uncle Robert, Aunt Kay, Aunt Kathy, and two grandparents, Grandpa Eller and Giles. I know that our love ones are with them and holding them. Some days I wish I could be the one to hold my future children. But I have to prepare to be a mom and my husband also has to prepare to be a dad here on earth.

 

We are all struggling with different trials, some of us may be struggling with the same pain, loss, or sadness. Tons of us are out there who are trying to conceive and are feeling the same, some cant express what they are feeling others look for help by counseling. I turn to blogging or my family in hopes to find someone who feels the same and understands. No one said it was going to be easy but there is always a reason for things to happen the way they do or why people leave foot prints in our homes.

 

 

 

" Whatever challenge we may face as parents, as spouses, in callings, with trials, even at the death of a loved one, we need to move forward. As we look forward, we have a choice of what we can focus on. We can gaze on the fruits that are ahead. We can see the grapes and the figs and the pomegranates, the rewards, joys, and fulfillments that are awaiting us. Or we can see the walls keeping us from them. We can stare at the giants, and, in our own sight, appear as grasshoppers in facing those great challenges. But if we learn to look at the fruits that await us, not the barriers, not the walls- there will always be walls, and giants to fight- our courage and hope will be enlivened. We will be assured that the fruits on the other side are worth it." S. Michael Wilcox

 

 

 

 

 

Lyrics to Glorious   - David Archuleta    

There are times when
You might feel aimless
You can't see the places
Where you belong
But you will find that
There is a purpose
It's been there
Within you all along
And when you're near it
You can almost hear it

It's like a symphony
Just keep listening
And pretty soon you'll start
To figure out your part
Everyone plays a piece
And there are melodies
In each one of us
Oh! It's glorious

And you will know how
To let it ring out
As you discover
Who you are
Others around you
Will start to wake up
To the sounds that are
In their hearts
It's so amazing
What we're all creating

It's like a symphony
Just keep listening
And pretty soon you'll start
To figure out your part
Everyone plays a piece
And there are melodies
In each one of us
Oh! It's glorious

Oh, oh, oh
As you feel
The notes build
Oh, you will see

It's like a symphony
Just keep listening
And pretty soon you'll start
To figure out your part
Everyone plays a piece
And there are melodies
In each one of us
Oh! It's glorious